My Desire

First off, I want to say I love intrapersonal psychology. It's a great class I think everyone should take, but if you can't, read the book I have to read for class.

Today we talked about how humans long for relationships and this desire God uses to draw us to Him. He is the only one who can eternally satisfy the desires we have in this life.

So this got me thinking about my desires. The past few months have opened my eyes to a desire I never knew I had. My recent relationship with a guy and the subsequent end to the relationship made me aware of one of my greatest desires for a human relationship.

I want to care for someone. I want to serve someone. I want to submit to someone. I want to love someone (see 1 Cor 13 for the definition of this love I am talking about). Now, I do want to be loved as well, but more than that, I want to love. I want to give of myself for someone else.

And how does this desire relate to God? Well, while I do hope and pray I can love for life a man, I should also be seeking to love God. What if these desires in me are not just for a man, but for my Maker and Lord? What if I were not so caught up with loving another on earth, but directed that desire toward God?

I believe that this should be the focus of my desire: strip it down to my simple desire to love someone, don't add the human answer to fill the blank with a man, and learn to fall in love with God.